Emotions

As I am coming close to the end of my 2ww, I'm feeling all sorts of mixed emotions. I'm mixed between happy, sad, hopeful, excited and many more. I have a good feeling about this last cycle of IUI. That "good feeling" leaves me happy, hopeful, and excited. I have also experienced this "good feeling" in the past and as we all know I wasn't pregnant. Then it left me sad, angry, frustrated, and hopeless. I'm to the point where I'm giving up with IUI. As much as I want it to work, I just know it isn't going to. We still have to do one more cycle of IUI before we can move on to IVF. If this cycle and the next is a failure, IVF is scheduled for November. We will be taking the month of October off because of our vacation to my husband's home town of Missouri. I'm really hoping to be pregnant by Christmas.