Ready for Change

Written January 2013



      Time has passed and my heart is still heavy about possibly leaving Dr. Miracles office.  I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that we aren't receiving the proper medical care.  I broke down and decided to call Dr. S's office and make a consult.  To my surprise they were able to schedule me the next week, this never happened in the past.. it was usually months before you could get an appointment.

      I arrived at my consult 15 minutes early and ready to drill Dr. S with my questions. Tyler was unable to make it due to work, so I had his questions ready too. I was taken back to Dr. S's office promptly after my arrival.  To my surprise, Dr. S immediately remembered who I was because when he was reviewing my chart, he remembered the very long surgery he did on me to repair my fallopian tubes.  He also was surprised at all of the procedures I had done at Dr. Miracles office.  He said that with all the eggs that I had had extracted ( a total of three egg retrievals, and 65 eggs ) there should be no reason why I've only had one pregnancy and seven frozen embryos.  He then began to go over and compare the success rates between the two offices.  It was clear that Dr. S' success rate was a great deal higher.  He then called in the embryologist (we'll call him CJ)and he also was surprised by the findings in my chart.  He assured me that we wouldn't have the same problems because his practices are far more successful.  I had an overall great feeling so I requested we go on the books for an FET the next month.

     The IVF coordinator (we'll call her Sweetheart) was then called into the office to go over the FET dates.  We were on the books for the end of March.  We went over all the fine details and I was given the consent packet to take home and review with Tyler. We then made arrangements for CJ to go and pick up my seven babies from Dr. Miracles office.  

After everything was worked out- I left the office with my confidences restored and excitement and hope at my all time high.                

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions,

Written October 2012

    Our precious baby girl is now approaching her first birthday.. the past year has just flown by. We have been discussing  when we were going to hop on the emotional roller coaster again and the baby fever is nipping me in the butt... HARD!  We know we want a big family and we don't want them spread too far in age.  I made the call to Dr. Miracle's office and Nurse Awesome answered the phone.  I told her we were ready for a consult and we were hoping to have an FET in February of 2013.  She was excited and scheduled us an appointment for the next week.
  
    The day was here, I got up early and made the 40 minute drive to Dr. Miracles office.  I walked in to discover Dr. Miracle had replaced his whole staff.  The friendly faces that I had grown so close to, the women that empathized and cried with me were no longer there.  I was upset, but I could deal with it, after-all it's the doctor who matters the most.  I had my consult with Dr. Miracle and we discussed our options.  We decided on doing an FET in the Spring of 2013, but in the time leading up to that.. I would try naturally with the assistance of Clomid.

    When I left the office that day, something just didn't seem right. I felt like something was being hidden from us and that we weren't receiving correct information.  I kept trying to put the feelings behind me, but the emotions kept creeping back up.  When I talked to Tyler about this, he suggested setting up a consult with our original RE, Dr. S.  

I was torn and conflicted but knew we had a tough decision to make.