Decisions, Decisions, Decisions,

Written October 2012

    Our precious baby girl is now approaching her first birthday.. the past year has just flown by. We have been discussing  when we were going to hop on the emotional roller coaster again and the baby fever is nipping me in the butt... HARD!  We know we want a big family and we don't want them spread too far in age.  I made the call to Dr. Miracle's office and Nurse Awesome answered the phone.  I told her we were ready for a consult and we were hoping to have an FET in February of 2013.  She was excited and scheduled us an appointment for the next week.
  
    The day was here, I got up early and made the 40 minute drive to Dr. Miracles office.  I walked in to discover Dr. Miracle had replaced his whole staff.  The friendly faces that I had grown so close to, the women that empathized and cried with me were no longer there.  I was upset, but I could deal with it, after-all it's the doctor who matters the most.  I had my consult with Dr. Miracle and we discussed our options.  We decided on doing an FET in the Spring of 2013, but in the time leading up to that.. I would try naturally with the assistance of Clomid.

    When I left the office that day, something just didn't seem right. I felt like something was being hidden from us and that we weren't receiving correct information.  I kept trying to put the feelings behind me, but the emotions kept creeping back up.  When I talked to Tyler about this, he suggested setting up a consult with our original RE, Dr. S.  

I was torn and conflicted but knew we had a tough decision to make.